“I thought the earth remembered me,
she took me back so tenderly,
arranging her dark skirts, her pockets
full of lichens and seeds.
I slept as never before, a stone on the river bed,
nothing between me and the white fire of the stars
but my thoughts, and they floated light as moths
among the branches of the perfect trees.
All night I heard the small kingdoms
breathing around me, the insects,
and the birds who do their work in the darkness.
All night I rose and fell, as if in water,
grappling with a luminous doom. By morning
I had vanished at least a dozen times
into something better.”
—Mary Oliver – “Sleeping in the Forest”
Inspiration in these beautiful videos, dreamlike imagery and haunting lullabies. What are yout favorite videos? Sometimes I spend all day watching magical videos like these because its like watching a dream unfold right in front of you., capturing the perfect mood or vibe.a
1. Pamela Love’s SS13 “Maia Collection” fashion film starring Crystal Renn
with music by Devendra Banhart
No words really. I think this is my favorite fashion video ever. I want to live within this dream realm. And those jewels!
2. Antlers, crystals and the forest From 2011 but LittleDoe is always inspiring. Why am I being drawn to summer?
3. Witches, girlfriends and late night love-spells Wildfox
4. Witches, the ocean, haunted doll like femmes. Lula
The other day I met growth. On Tuesday I went to lunch with my sweet Tina in Silverlake, found an amazing brand of raw, organic rose kombucha, I found myself talking, and even though I was talking to my friend I was also talking to myself as well. Art is something I have done on my own since I was young. Innately and passionately. I realized the difference from when I was a child, to now is that I didn’t think about creating when I was young. I created because it was like breathing. It was an escape. A daydream. A dream. My reaction. As you get older I became more aware. Perhaps less nurturing and more oriented and attached but not in a healthy way. I want to tell stories, hide secrets, weave dreams and honor nature, discover science. Instead of feeling like a tight-rope walker scared of a misstep I have to return to the path I took as a child.
Throw yourself to the wind and nurture and trust yourself. Having expectations is helpful but depending on them is a block. I am going to make an effort to practice everyday and accept the journey whether it is short or long, positive or bumpy. The path of growth is an unexpected, unknown and sometimes intimidating. If growth was easy, we wouldn’t learn from it. Growth is necessary and worth the journey, to practice and experiment and step outside what is comfortable, but staying true to your voice and nature is the balance I need to discover and work on.
With the new years comes the desire from resolutions goals, things to overcome in the new year. Though I have written a bit about what I would like the new year to bring, but I think it is a good to have dreams and I like to think of goals as a paper ship ride, not fully knowing where you will go but eventually, you will reach land. And that is important. To journey and have a vision (or several) and see where the wind will take you.
This year I would like to
1. Harvest a garden. I want wildflowers, herbs and maybe a small lemon tree
2. Explore more of California, and have more adventures in general, make new friendships
3. Journal more. I admire people who at the end of the year have heavily filled journals
4. Write down every bit of inspiration, vision and dream
5. Tackle new knitting techniques, as daunting or intimidating as it may seem
6. Collect more treasures and old books
7. Focus more on my darling pen pals/packages
8. Join a workshop, any kind, at least once this year
9. My goal this year is to read 60 books.
10. Improve my health organically, holistically. blogs I love : Brit, Sarah and Keeper of the Home
11. Document more, I used to be someone who took photos and captured memories, I haven’t done that in years, I want to return to collecting memories
I have more but I’ll keep this one short!
2012 was both beautiful but challenging. I learned a great deal about myself. I picked up watercolors and began my introduction to properly painting with them. I realized how beautiful strength can be and it is a dance worth learning. Worth mastering. I met new kindred spirits that showed me the beauty of a wild spirit, to let go and be. I learned to follow a woodland animal’s instinct and the art of breathing. Most things I learned from nature. I am still learning, and it will never end. A cycle, the ellipse of undiscovered meaning
Today will be partially spent reflecting, and then towards commencement it will be spent focusing on the future. Today will be pomegranate seeds, old creaky accordion music and words about dreams, it will be filled with thick woolen handed-down sweaters to evade the cold, dancing underneath the moon and the stars a bit to dim to find in the city sky.
In the new year I want knitting needles, paint brushes, books to be read, studies to be completed, history to be found, land to be explored, picnics to be had, journeys to be taken, I want poetry in the post and to dance with shadows. I want strength like a cloaked jeweled armor, I want the mountains and the woods the frost of the seasons and buds of spring.
I hope you all have a beautiful New Years and spent it with the ones you love
“Seek knowledge. Open yourself up to possibility. Keep your heart open, your head high and your spirit free. Embrace your darkness along with your light.”