This is a reminder that the external care does not equate or replace internal care.
Recently, I had one of the most difficult weeks I had ever experienced. Filled with deadlines, skipping meals just to hustle forward, lack of sleep, unconscious jaw clenching, and isolation. The extent of my unwinding included a glass of wine and conversations with my boyfriend about how I felt I was whirling. It subsided my anxiety a bit but it didn’t dispel it.
Once the weekend came I found some spark of joy in a new eye shadow palette, treated myself to a fancy non dairy cappuccino, painted my nails because I had some social plans lined up. Because, as I said to myself, “I deserve it.”
There was also brushing off the stressful build up from the week and continuing to move forward. We like to believe that we can out of sight, out of mind. Then the thoughts may creep up of you might find yourself over analyzing a situation, anticipation an outcome, etc.
This was perhaps one of the most special yet rejuvenating trips I have had in quite a long time. Travel can sometimes be stressful even if the goal is to vacation. You either bring too much or not enough, you feel rushed or feel like you should be doing more. Thankfully this was not the cause on our adventure. Our drive was windy but to eat diner food and share warm cocoa leaving us with fully bellies was a comfort in itself. Elevated by the actual autumnal weather as we hit the short drive to the cabin only to warm by the fire and listen to the thunder and watch the sparks of lightning.
This was a truly enchanting trip. We got a cabin from Air Bnb for a really good deal (if you want 40$ off your first trip use my code through this link!) I loved the fireplace and being so close to the trees and making tons of tea in the morning. Having never been to Big Bear, experiencing it in the autumn was a real joy. Driving at night felt as if I were driving through a Christmas town within a snow globe. At daytime we embarked out to explore the city, witnessing the trees hitting their peak of autumnal color – ranging from orange, ochre, and intense reds.
Leaving Cambria was hard y’all, a girl can get used to a beautiful ocean view & lush green flower fields pretty fast. But I was incredibly excited for our next adventure. We made our way to San Francisco, to embark on the Alcatraz tour (which I documented on my Instagram Stories so follow me on there!) Back in the city I must say it was quite bustling but the trolleys were quite fun! We had to drive on to the next city of Santa Rosa to check in to our hotel. The next day we had breakfast at Jeffrey’s Hillside Cafe that was absolutely remarkable. We let the waitress know that I have Celiac, so she very thoughtfully and diligently took care of my order and made sure my breakfast didn’t come into any contact with allergens. They also serve a damn fine cup of vegan coffee. They do have several plant-based & vegan options for y’all! Nick & I loved our meal and with full bellies, we went up on out north.
Is it possible to have jet lag from driving? As in sitting in the passenger seat while we made our way up north for a week-long vacation? I am still recovering + reliving our trip through these photos and films I shot along the way. Our first stop was Cambria, a little town nestled in the central California coast It reminded me a lot of Stars Hollow, perhaps a more beachy + overcast version of it. I wish we had stayed here longer and explored more of the city (and cafes!). If you like a picturesque drive from L.A. (or Southern California in general) this is definitely worth it.